So... I just found out that we can't afford both for both Steve and I to go to Pennsic.
However, Steve has said that I can go with out him....

This means that I need to find someone to carpool with and someone to camp with.

The camping space is not as necessary as the carpooling.
Carpooling would help to save money (on both sides.)

If you can help me with either, please e-mail me at: aubrey.kelly@gmail.com

Thanks

So, is it odd that the thought that the 2 thoughts that got me through my final critique were as follows?

1. Myself and every other senior in the building were in the finals of our very own personal talent live tv show (such as "Any Dream Will Do" or if you must "American Idol".) The song: Close Every Door To Me by Andrew Lloyd Webber from the musical "Joesph and the Technical Color Dream Coat" was my personal song.


and

2. The following lines from the animated film "Aladdin" by Disney: "Aboo this is no time to panic!" a few seconds later: "Start Panicking!"

I passed!

I get to graduate!

I have decided that since this is my 2nd undergrad degree I am not going to walk for this graduation.
I would much rather go to dinner with family and then have a few drinks afterwards.

I want musicals.

I love musicals. Specifically Andrew Llyod  Webber musicals,  but I enjoy others as well. 
And so I want their music to listen to.
Steve isn't a fan so there aren't any in our collection.

:(

I want musicals.
They would help me with  my final project.

So I'm terrified.

Next Thursday I meet with my Senior Thesis committee.
At that time I plan on asking them if they are going to pass me or fail me.

My thesis meetings have not gone well in the past. The closing statement by my lead advisor last quarter was: "Although your work is now of a higher level, it is of a lower quality on that level than your previous work."

If they pass me, all is well.

If they fail me...

If they fail me then I will have to repeat Senior Thesis.
Which means another year of dealing with a committee...
but no more classes to take.

The catch here is that I need no more credits to graduate so the government will most likely not fund another year of me in school.
Which means no graduating for me because I can't afford to pay for it.

So... I have a plan.
If they pass me: I'm taking a year off before applying to grad school for education (either art or normal) to get my teaching cert.
If they fail me, then I will take the classes to get my art education teaching certification next year while repeating senior thesis.

For some reason this plan does not make me feel any better. *sighs*

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and you usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous. At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What does it say about me that I've always had sympathy for the Phantom?
Yes, he was a psychopath, but only because society made him one.

On another side note, slightly related - why do all the advocates of 'True Love' seemingly forget at points that it's only True Love if both parties return the feelings?

And now to writing papers!

So a lot of my friends have birthdays in early March.

Happy early birthday ppl. You know who you are.

~Bree

I was in car accident last night.
My car was hit 5 separate times.
I am ok - sprained neck and shoulder and a medium bump on the back of my head.
I will have horrible bruises and will be extremely sore for the next couple of days.

My car is not ok.
I'm very lucky - I could have been hurt much worse as the gas tank was exposed after the last hit.
The car will most likely be a complete loss.
I will post pictures later.

This is the 2nd one of my cars to be totaled in 2 weeks due to an accident caused by black ice.

But the important part is that I'm ok.

Intro Painting: B+
Intro Photo: B
Adv. Drawing: C+
Senior Thesis: SP (Satisfactory Progress, replaced In Progress Grade)
( Language... )

 Subject says it all....

Last week my puppy dog that I raised from birth died (she was 14)
and I got my midterm grade from my thesis professor (I'm getting a C...)

And since when are undergraduates less important that graduate students?
(my small group crit of my work [for the class I'm getting a C in...] has been pushed back by my prof 3 times so he can spend time with the grad students...) 

So, yeah. 

You Are 72% Goth

You are clearly goth. Even if you don't consider yourself goth, other people do. Let's face it. You're a little moodier, darker, and weirder than most people. But that's okay. You enjoy being different, and you're proud of who you are. Many psychologists think that goths are more self aware and smarter than the average person!

Today the homesickness started.

*sighs*

That's because today is the first day of Pennsic, otherwise known as land rush.
One of the only places in the world where I truly felt at home.
I haven't been in 4 years... just haven't been able to afford it.

I've always felt lonely during this time of year.
But this year it felt like someone had punched me in the gut this morning.
It feels like I *need* to be there.

*sighs*

No job = no obligations holding me back.
However: no job = no money to go.

I'll live, but I want to get drunk / have a party at least 1 night in the next 2 weeks.
I'll see if I can get anyone to join me or if it's going to be a party of 1.

Today I was fired from the family business.

Suck.

Talk about a slap in the face.

You know if you're laid off by a regular job (of any type) it sucks but you get over it because you never have to see those people again (normally.) Having your significant other walk in the door and instead of saying "Honey, I'm home." they say: "Honey, you're fired." Feels like shit.

I wish that were the only bad thing that had happened today, but I'm too tired to go into details about the rest of it.

DIGITAL FOUND III A
CURRENT ARTS FORUM A
INTAGLIO PRINT B-
ADV SCULPTURE A
LIFE PAINTING B-


I have also been accepted into the the teacher liscensure program.

So tomorrow I have 2 pieces of art in a one day show here in Cincinnati. They are not masks, but prints because I didn't know which masks I'd have left after Marcon.

If you're in the area I invite you to drop in - the show runs from 12 pm until 2 am or so.
The address of the temporary gallery is:

Northside
4035 Hamilton Ave.
Cincinnati, OH


On another note I sold 5 of 9 masks that I took with me to Marcon, which is good. The fact that they sold for minimum bid price, not so good - but I'm happy they sold.

I never thought going back to school would make me feel so very very useless and unwanted:

- I've been replaced at work.

Okay, so I still have a job - but I don't *do* anything anymore - I can't even check to see what bills need to be paid because my log in is being used by the other person. And for all you people out there that would say being paid to sit at a computer and look at the internet is your ideal job - good for you - it's not mine. Sitting here and checking e-mail, looking at the internet and playing games just makes me feel unwanted and useless, like I'm just taking up space.

- I never get to spend anytime with my husband and when I do try to schedule time - he's already busy with something else.

Usually it's cam stuff but last night it was the yard work and cleaning the house and the night before that he was so exhausted he laid down and went to sleep when I got home.

- DAAP is so cliquish and the teachers don't even notice or they encourage the attitude.

At school I feel unwanted and unliked (and sometimes even hated) by the other students. I had one teacher (for my Practicum class) that made us look around the room while telling us that everyone else there was our competition. And then she proceeded to tell us that 95% of us would never use our degree and that of the 5% that became practicing artists - 95% would have to have a "day time" job. Depressing.

Right, I have a lot more I could rant on, but why should I?

The Recipe For Aubrey

3 parts Instinct 2 parts Mischief 1 part Vigor Splash of Allure Serve over ice

Yeah... I think I'm done with the game packrat on facebook. Or at least I am done stealing items from my friends on it. (Stealing from friends is actually part of the game.) As this game has caused me to be dropped from 3 different "friend"s lists. Which I think is stupid. but their choice.

A reminder to anyone who cares and some who don't - my journal is not CoC compliant, nor does it have to be because it's my presonal space.

That said:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm tired of this fucking double talk and back stabbing.

If you hate eachother - fine.
I don't care - take it elsewhere.

IC should be IC. OC should be OC. They should not mix.

Unfortunately they do.

I think I'm beyond caring.

What started as a great idea has turned into people using one another and blaming others for it.

So tired of that shit.

I'm also tired of my friends owing me money. So that's done - I don't care who you are, I'm not loning you one red cent anymore.

There's something to be said when I can't afford to pay to have my house repaired when my basement floods but others can afford to go on special trips when they owe me money.

That something is very simple - its a large bold word that's been on my forehead for too long "SUCKER". And well, I'm tired of it. So I'm done. No more favors, no more rides, no more. Just no more.